Wednesday, February 24, 2010

6 GARBAGE BAGS FULL!

Yes, you read correctly, 6 garbage bags full. Of what you ask? CRAP!

Last week we had my daughters birthday and it went brilliantly. Only thing is she got given an INSANE amount of noisy toys. WOOHOO! Yeah, total sarcasm there. On the upside, it enabled me to come home and clear out my daughters things without feeling guilty.

In those 6 bags was toys, books, clothes I am going to fit soon, but really don't like the style any more, clothes my girls have grown out of, baby blankets etc...
Add to that a box of dvd's, some clothes I am giving to some friends and family and you can see I have too much stuff.

Now, that 6 bags is just of stuff for the op shop. There is another 3 bags of rubbish stuff. No wonder I feel so cramped in here. Where does it all come from seriously?

Oh, ok, shhhh, don't tell my husband, but it's probably mostly me. (Other than 2 HUGE piles of stuff clogging up the walk in robe and bedroom which are HIS!) It is not that I buy all this stuff. Infact, hardly any of what I am getting rid of was bought. It was given to me.

People offer me things and I think "Oh, that'd be great!" or "The girls will love that!" And they do, for a while. Then it just gets in my way and becomes more clutter.

I have cleaned out to the point where only 1/2 my bookshelf is full, only 1/2 my section of the wardrobe is full, the toy box is only 1/2 full and under my daughters bed is EMPTY! And my house is feeling SO much roomier (well as roomy as it gets in a 1 bedroom unit!)

A lot of the things I got rid of were things I have felt too guilty to toss before now. But, you know what, if the house burnt down, I wouldn't miss this stuff. It's not getting used anymore and it is not needed.

I have 3 more large items I am having trouble parting with. Maybe in 12 months I can, because then I can use the excuse my girls are too big. Or maybe I should get older kids to come over and "accidently" break them. And in their eyes it WILL be an accident, coz I will know they are too big to use them, but will encourage them all the same! Evil, I know!

I am feeling so much happier with less clutter in my life and without looking at thigns feeling like I have to keep them coz so and so gave it to us. Life is too short to feel guilty.

My aim now is to NOT go shopping. I don't need anything now. I am also not going to accept things from people for a little while, with the excuse, I have no room right now UNLESS it is something I REALLY will definitely 100% sure use, not just something I like and not toys or books. Too many excuses I know, cut me some slack, this is a HUGE change!

Go on, toss the stuff, you'll feel great!

Friday, February 19, 2010

101 Things update

So far my list has been going well. I have started the no TV month (#16) and despite being sorely tempted last night I have done well. I started it on the 1st Feb, so have done almost 3 weeks!
I have been writing in my gratitude diary (#13) and should probably do it more often.
I have looked into getting my teeth whitened (#6) and am thinking I will do it next month.
I am going to donate to Kiva (#14) this week, along with my list of 101 things I like about myself (#19).

I have not been doing number 29, read a book to my daughters every day. I read to them regularly, but haven’t done it every day and since there will be a few days I won’t be with them during my 1001 days, I just won’t be able to do this one, but I will be able to read 1001 times to them.
My first book will be published in 2 – 4 weeks (#56) which is extremely exciting.
There are many other things on my list I am in the process of planning, such as a day at a day spa, donating blood, do a will etc...

My husband is about to start doing a course for work, which means even more time with him away and no car for me, so I am going to need to plan things well. It goes for 6 weeks, which isn’t really that long, but will feel like it to me.

All in all I think I am doing well and hopefully will get to cross quite a few thigns off in these first few months.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Bargains to be had

Today is one of those days I wish I had a house and I wish I had taken a camera out with me.

My husband wanted to get some metal from Revolve and Tiny’s Green Shed, so we went out there to have a look. The stuff that was there today was UNREAL! Kids toys in good condition, a kayak, a wheel burrow, body boards that looked near new, swing sets, bikes and more.

There were so many things that I looked at and thought if we had a house I could get that... I would’ve loved the Kayak. The one I have been looking at is close to $600 and this one was so similar!

There were kids bikes that looked almost new. Kids table and chairs, wooden ones like I want, there was even a new looking stainless steel dishwasher.

Tinys is a whole lot more organised and being in sheds it is protected from the weather. Both it and Revolve have great bargains though.

As it was we scored the metal basket we wanted for my husband to keep making the portable hangi for FREE! Yup, they said we could just have it. So he is sitting outside at the moment trying to get it how he wants it. I’ll post pics once the hangi is all done.

Quillow


Last night I made my nephew’s birthday present. He is 1 today. Can you guess his name?

This may look like an ordinary blanket, but it’s not...It’s a quillow! What the heck’s a quillow? It is a blanket (quilt) that can turn into a pillow! Quilt + pillow = quillow. Hilarious I know!

All you need is
2 pieces of polar fleece 180cm x 180cm
2 pieces of polar fleece 60cm x 60cm
Wool

I stitched the name on one of the small squares. Next I used blanket stitch with the wool and stitched the 2 small squares together down 2 sides (the top and the right hand side.)

Next I laid the small squares on the large squares the bottom left hand corner, so the 2 sides that had not been stitched were on the corner of the larger squares.

Blanket stitch right around the large squares including the edges of the small squares to join all the fabric.

Lastly use a sewing machine to run up the right had side of the small squares to join them to the big squares and make a pocket.

That’s it. It didn’t take me as long as I thought and when I make another one I will take step by step photo’s for you, which should be in the next month.

To fold it: Fold it in thirds one way, then the other and fold it in on itself in the pocket to make it into a pillow.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Stuck

Some of you may read this and think I am selfish and ungrateful. I’m not. This is an honest from my heart post, that I felt I needed to write.

I have been feeling a bit like I am stuck in a rut. I have goals and things I am working towards, but I have been feeling like the life I am living is not the life I wanted. As a kid I didn’t want to get married til I was in my mid 20’s. I was going to go to Uni, serve a mission for my church, THEN consider marriage.

As a teen, the idea of marriage was ok. At the end of my teens I wanted to go be a camp counsellor in the USA and travel USA then conservation work in Costa Rica, nanny in Ireland or England and travel Europe then travel Asia etc... I had the trips completely planned.

I met my husband when I was 19. Married him 4 days before I turned 20. We did go to New Zealand and USA that year. We bought a house the next year, had our first daughter the next year. Moved interstate the following year and had our next daughter the year after that, which brings me to this year.

It is not that I don’t love my family, it’s just that my life has turned out very different to what I had planned. I came to the realisation the other day, that I must be “mourning” that life and I need to let it go. I can never do some of those things, and I should be grateful for the things I do have which some people spend their whole life desiring and never getting.

I have 2 kids, when I was told at 17yrs old it is unlikely I would have any. I have a husband who loves me and provides for our family and I do not need to work. I am publishing my first book. I have done some travel. I own a house. I just bought the car I wanted (And it totally rocks btw!) I have a good life.

Realising this has made me feel so much better. Just because my life hasn’t turned out how I planned doesn’t mean it’s not awesome. There are some things though that I have always wanted to do, which are on my 101 list and I am going to do them. I am going to stop focussing on how I wanted to do more travelling and how we will travel when the kids are older and focus more on the here and now.

I have already mentioned that I will be doing the bridge climb and surfing lessons. Today I am going to look into dance lessons. I wanted to lose some more weight before I started some, so I will be looking into classes for next term and seeing how much I will need. I lost another kilo this week and am hoping to be back to my prekids weight by my birthday in April. This is not unrealistic either.

This year is MY year I have decided. I am going to do some of the things I have always wanted. I am going to live for today. I am still saving for the future but I want experiences for the now. I want us to have a house here, not and IP. I want my girls to have a backyard they can play in. I want them to have fond memories of their childhood, of the family activities, holidays and things.

I am going to stop “trying to lose weight” and just lose it already! I have PCOS which makes weight lose hard, but it is an excuse I refuse to use anymore. I have lost 13kg in the last year so I am capable of losing eight!

I am going to stop thinking about doing a dance class and do one. I am going to learn the 2nd language like I have always wanted.

Every year since I met my husband I have had something big happen that year. Something we have had to save for or I have been pregnant which has stopped me from doing things I have wanted to do. This year I will not be pregnant and other than hopefully selling our house in Syd and buying here, there is not anything major which I have to save for. I am not postponing my desires anymore.

Just so you know, I have depression and am medicated for it. I truly feel that if I started living MY life, it will get better, coz lately it has been getting worse. Sorry for the long post, but i just wanted everyone to know where I am at.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Ruthless

Yesterday I had to pull everything out of the storage room as my husband needed the keg we have in there right away. No it’s not full of beer and he was not wanting to get drunk! We are turning it into a portable hangi for our daughters birthday party. We have been aiming to do it for nearly 2 years!

Anyway, it was right at the back because I assumed we would not be using it when I reorganised. As I pulled everything out I was looking at things and decided a bunch of it I don’t really need and got rid of it.

I was looking at my scrapbooking stuff, which I love and want to do but never have time. My little sister is getting right into it and I had an idea. I asked her if she would like to store all my stuff in her room (she lives at home) she can use anything she wants, paper stickers whatever and I when I actually find time to do stuff, I’d like to use the tools or whatever. She got very excited and I am happy coz it wont be taking up space in my house and I really have no idea when I would ever get around to it. There are very few stickers I am heavily attached too or want, so they will stay here. The main thing was all the tools. I did not want to get rid of them, and this way someone will get use of them whilst I know I can still use them if needs be.

I think with scrapbooking I like a lot of the things, but when it comes to sitting down and doing it, it’s not one of my favourite past times. I do like the end result though.

So now my storage room has even less stuff in it and looks even better. As for the rest of the house, well, lets not go there!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Much desired lamp


I am very excited about this lamp. I don’t expect anyone else to be. My husband was less than impressed when he arrived home on Friday to see it.


I have nowhere to put it in our current place but I have been eyeing this lamp off for what feels like FOREVER! I had actually decided that if I saw it ½ price I would buy it. On Friday I did better than ½ price.

I walked into a store I LOVE and there it was. At the front marked down. Originally $146, now $50. There has to be something wrong with it I though, but could not find anything. I asked the assistant. Nope, it’s all good.

So I bought it and I love it. Too bad I have nowhere to put it and it is sitting in our storage room! Oh well. I am happy with my bargain and I know when we have a house I will use it. Mind you, I have been eyeing off our furniture and wondering how I could change things to have it sit somewhere. I have some ideas, so you never know!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

101 update

I have a few things planned to cross off my list soon. I have decided in April to go to Sydney for 1 – 2 nights. I am going to climb the bridge, go to the Centre Point Tower Restaurant and learn to surf! I am pretty excited. It is all cheaper than I thought, though still not cheap!

I have been reading to my girls, even though half the time they are not really interested! They are fairly independent girls who like to do their own thing and entertain themselves.

My first book to be published should be out soon, which is very exciting.

I have started my gratitude journal which I think will really help me have a better view on things and appreciate my husband more. I suffer from depression so I think this will really help me with that.

I am keeping a food diary and I do not eat very well! I eat too many carbs I think and not enough fresh fruit and veg. And it has only been a few days! Mind you I have not felt the greatest the last few days.

I have gone for 2 walks this week so hopefully I can do another one tomorrow and I will get to that size 10. I am aiming to be able to do 5 more crunches than I can do now by this time next week. I can do 20 at the moment, so my aim is 25 by next Wednesday.

The quote for this month is “Nothing tastes as good as thin feels”. Yes it is aimed at me. My kids are too young to read so it is not going to scar them for life. I have it on my wall in the kitchen to remind me. Funnily enough my food diary still says I eat crap.

I have lots more plans in the works, so it looks like I am starting this list well.